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Just thought I'd give a quick update to certain things for those who are kind enough to share some of their time browsing my page. I have a few finished/unfinished paintings (of different styles) and some other works that I will upload ASAP on here, I'm currently writing up two essays also - one on my artist theorizartion of Signalism and another on a topic that I'm still keeping classified for the time being AND I'm further experimenting with different forms of abstract and abstract graphics as a form of image-making.

Also, away from art for a moment, I spent (or at least tried) the day in one of these mass-shop consumer retail parks that are wall to wall with corporate shops in the middle of nowhere. One of my jobs was that I wanted to try and trade-in/sell some old video games of mine since I don't really play games anymore (yep, you heard me - a near-enough 19 year old teen who DOESN'T play video games) and there was also one other game that I wanted to return and hopefully, at least, get a refund. HA, I was doomed before I even walked in the door...and I knew it. The staff member immediately refused to accept the return OR allow a trade-in of ANY of the PC games I had mainly down to the fact that "it's a PC game...sooooo...ooooo...well, y'know- copying and stuff...bad...y'know...". But that's not it - the store also wouldn't accept the many GC, PS AND PS2 games that I had also mainly down to the fact that "they're too old". Yeh, sure....and I bet you next you're going to say that your cold faceless black-tie corporate upper-heads above on the first floor of your buildings DIDN'T tell you/force you to say that, right? What a pathetic system of corporate desire and one-way traffic the relationship between retailer and consumer is, wouldn't you agree?

That's all for now. *will update again later*



Asperger's Syndrome is a mental and psycholgical disability branched off the generic classification that is Autism. This particular syndrome affects the emotional and reactional sections of the mind and also affects the brain's processing abilities for everyday routines, tasks and situations. Although the sufferer does show signs of creativity, intelligence and high wisdom of the environment around him/her, at the same time, the sufferer's brain lacks abilities to process information properly, and in result, can further suffer from emotional and psychological pain via the environment around him/her or through certain situations that affect and relate back to the activities and events that that person finds himself/herself in.

I, for example, suffer the lack of being able to socially interract and understand basic information that is being said. But at the same time, on the positive side, there is a clear sign of creativity and knowledge in numerous fields and subjects, and in result, the ability to do thorough and complex tasks in mathematics, spelling and technological categories are present.

But it is the emotional side and resulting suffering that should be the primary concern when interracting with someone with the syndrome. Here are the DO's & DONT's when talking/meeting/interracting with someone with Asperger's Syndrome:

DO...
Talk with the individual in a clear and understandable manner so that he/she can feel comfortable about interracting back.

Make the individual feel valued by (in this case) commenting on work and at times, inviting them to certain events so as to make them think that they are being remembered and valued as a friend, and hopefully further.

Put yourself in his/her POV and understand how certain situations and incidents would affect the individual so as to draw out reasonable ways to interract with that person.

Ask if the individual is OK and alright, as it is highly likely that he/she is too scared to talk or is afraid that something might happen or some response might be given so as to upset or make the individual feel down.

Explain things clearly and ensure that the individual understands what you are talking about. Failure to do so may result in later emotional turmoil and psychological consequences that will affect the individual's confidence in his/her own personal abilities.

DON'T...
Give the individual false hope and 'Maybe' statements about certain situations and predicaments. His/her mind works in such a way that it can't process the emotional elements to these statements and will automatically stick within a default assumption. The resulting response back may result in further emotional depression and psycholgical damage to his/her abilities as an individual. *

Make the individual feel worthless and pointless. Individuals need reassurance that they have friends and people to talk to and a lack of attention towards that individual will result in he/she assuming that they are being ignored and rejected in favour for those who do not suffer from this mental disability. *

Assume that what you think is a minor incident, will feel the same to this given individual. Difference in chemical make-ups in the brain and mental process patterns will cause the individual to put high importance on things that may seem minor and/or too little to focus on. Lack of attention to such events/incidents will result in further emotional turmoil and personal disgust that the individual will feel is being expressed from others towards himself/herself. **

Assume that the individual will see an accidental/unintentional event/situation, in the same light and/or way. Any form of personal assualt whether accidental or deliberate affects the emotional stability of the individual and will result in extreme paranoia and skepticism. **

Go about doing something that the individual may bear witness to or might see, without thinking first about how that individual might react to it. Pictures, conversations and any other form of produced event that the individual can easily view might cause a reaction to personal feelings and emotional assumptions and will lead the individual into unpredictable negative emotions and personal paranoia. ***

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* Must be worded properly and thought about before spoken. Asperger's causes sufferers to focus deeply on the specific words chosen by that person and may result in future emotional trauma depending on the textual statements used.

** Can be resolved via conversations and/or personal talks, however, one must take note that during that situation, the individual will currently be in a negative emotional state or may be suffering from a depressing lack in personal confidence, so care must be taken into what is said.

*** In order to ensure the individual is comfortable with going forward with such given event, talk to the individual prior to it and ask if it is OK to go forward with it. Whatever answer is given, both parties must be able to agree on the basis that it will be acceptable and emotionally/psychologically suitable.

It is also worth noting that sufferer's tolleration levels are extremely low as only specific situations based on personal comfort are acceptable to that individual. Intentional/Unintentional Environmental situations that don't fit within the comfort of that individual will result first in emotional annoyance and at worst, lead to deep depression and psychological paranoia.

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I have put this up so as to TRY and make everybody understand that it is hard being ME both on an emtional level and a psycholgical level too. Add in the fact that I have been diagonsed with Clinical Depression too and it makes the reality of my condition even worse and even more delicate. This writing has been added here in the wake of a current personal state of paranoia and emotional mixture of depression, loneliness, anger and jealousy caused by family and close friends.

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